Utter disappointment

Kings of Convenience was at Cloth & Clef yesterday.

I arrived too late.

Screw family time.


I told his friend to tell him that KoC was at C&C. He went to gamble for the ticket. And didn't even get it for me. As a friend, I'm very disappointed in him.

He knows. He remembers better than me. Yet he thoughtlessly did so. Should I or shouldn't I believe that he has little regard for me?

And to not feel guilty?

Like I said, I deal with my turmoil alone. Lately, I couldn't eat. I couldn't function well if my eyes are red and swelling from tears most of the time. I couldn't think. I couldn't care about anything else and I'm ashamed of it.

I thought you would be happy if I am happy too?

Why are you(or the lack of you that I love) becoming the source of my unhappiness these days?